Life..has to be grand!!

Life!
wow..what do you thing this four letter word is all about?
it's a gift given to you by God with the help of your mother.
but this life is grand..it does not matter whether you live it up in a slum
or in a mansion..at the end of the day it's the way you look at yourself..
the people around you..the things around you..is what actually matters.
sometimes this life leaves you in a situation where you feel you are lost in this ocean..
you were the one who opted to swim in the sea..you knew it that you don't know how to swim..
you knew it that if you reach the deeper part you can even drown..but you "chose" to enter it..because
you found it attractive..because you wanted to be a part of what the world was doing..and because you thought whats the harm if i have some fun on the shallower side..and because you were confident enough you would be careful enough and never enter the deeper side..its okay!no problem with your thought process...this is life..you tend to get attracted to things which might just lead up to your end..and yes!you even know about it.
okay!so you enter the water..you are excited but hell careful..you are alert..so protect your self from the high tides..you do have your "life jacket" on...when suddenly you don't even realize and you get so engrossed in this beautiful ocean..you get even more attracted..you get attached to this ocean..the calmness of the waves..the beautiful sound of them meeting the shore..you start thinking that the life outside this ocean was nothing as compared to this one..you are having the best days of your life..and you don't realize when you finally enter the deeper side...earlier you had your life jacket on..but you left it mid-way because it made you feel uncomfortable..its okay again..this is all Life..and it has to be grand..now when you finally realize you are in the deeper side you start panting..you get breathless..you beg for help..ALL the happiness that you had just lived some moments back suddenly turns into the worst thing you have ever done in your life...the feeling of the waves even touching you gets a shiver down your spine..the life "outside" this ocean seems so beautiful now..so you are lost..you can't hear anything except for your own screaming and shouting..and yes you are drowning...you have almost seen death when a person finally comes to your rescue..you are safe..you are back to your life...but that drowning feeling somewhere still exists..days pass....months pass....you start forgetting about it...and one fine day you see the same beach again..you still remember all that had happened...but you promise yourself once again that you will not go to the deeper side and enter the ocean.its hard to resist right?

why do you think i wrote this?this ocean can be anything...ocean of thoughts...where in the back of your mind you know that thinking about the same thing again and again will lead you to nowhere but still you keep on thinking...and because you think about it so much that you tend to get depressed..upset...you feel lost...and when finally you want to come out of the same thought...you feel trapped ..you can't do anything...some are lucky enough to get out of it because of may be friends?family?oneself?God?..anything...but some...you might have heard of things like suicide?...yes people...suicide is the outcome of this ever growing feeling...which you want to kill within yourself...it is a result of all the tension...trauma...thoughts....you are trying to burry within yourself...that you finally give up...
.."i don't have anything to give you now...so i finally give up"...
this ocean can also be love....Love..yes you can permit yourself a smile...even i did....its okay!..let me tell you people if you fall in love thinking this is your "true love" you will soon realize it was just "another of your true loves" when you are finally out of it..if you want to be fake...if you want to hurt someone...the best way out is say 'i luv you"...and later "bunk them"..and yes you can smile again at my stupid but true thoughts.
okay now why am i comparing this ocean to love?love...what i have said just one line back..is my personal thought..but i am sure many of you or may be in todays world almost all of you think the same..or may be something like that...but just think what if the person you have this "secret crush" on proposed you?will you ever say "no"?come on ask yourself please..for my sake...close your eyes and imagine the person you like secretly or may be openly...proposes you...(i know this thought will atleast make you smile..its okay!...its but natural...sometimes its hard to control your smile and sometimes harder to control your tears)..you know that in the end this love will lead you to nowhere....it can't be forever?oviously it can't...forever is like so much..*phew*...so you know that if you say yes...you might just love that person even more...and later he/she might be the only beautiful thing in your life perhaps the only thing that would give you happiness..but you know if this person leaves you someday...you will be left with "nothing"...you will be "lost"...but you ignore these thoughts and say a "yes"...life suddenly becomes so beautiful..wow...the life "outside" this "love world" seems like so blank...so dull...it seems you have just started living the best days of your life...you are happy...more than happy..but yes you are careful that you dint get too much into this (life jacket)...but later you get so attracted that you finally decide to throw the life jacket away..and enjoy your love life to the fullest...and you still are the happiest...you wish time goes still...you think everything is perfect....but have’nt you heard before "its against the rules of God to see a person happy for more than sometime"..now this "sometime" can be hours....months...years...it depends..(and by the way this is my theory so how can you hear it before?)...anyways...so now this person...who once loved you...was always willing to talk to you..always missed you..wanted to hug you...and just be with you...suddenly does'nt even call you up..."ignores" your messages..rejects your calls....so is the love gone?or may be as i said it was all fake?you use to live in this world of illusion....you can't be sure...so now you finally want to get over this..."ALL the happiness that you had just lived some moments back suddenly turns into the worst thing you have ever done in your life"...see that's life...grand na?...so you can't get over this person now...you feel "lost"...suffocated...you feel that you are "drowning"...you sinking and there is no one who can help you out...but after all this do you stop loving that person?ask this question to yourself...i am sure you will get an answer...if your answer is "yes" my dear..here is a reality check....the answer is "no"...its not all that easy as it seems now...forgetting someone you considered everything...is this easy?it is the hardest thing on this earth...but you can't help it....and yes this is life...aint it grand?...somehow you come out of it...(i am not sure..but maybe you can)...but the thoughts kill you...you have made up your mind you wont even think about this person...but after every two minutes don't you check your cell phone for one message...?...whenever your phone rings don't you wish its her/him?..its okay!...natural as i say...this is life....and it has to be grand...the person is still in your thoughts but yes you finally have learnt how to smile...to live your life without this person...you live a normal life...may be with some emptiness...NOW...days pass...months pass..or may be even years....this person calls you...and says..."i still luv you"...gives a long list of problems as to why he was'nt able to call you up...and so on...will you say its okay....and get back to those huh "beautiful" days...or....hmmm...should i even give you another option?...you need to be strong(this strong is far more stronger than the image of the word “strong” that you have in mind) to say a "no".....i leave this question...unanswered....think about it...and do tell me the answer please...!!
that ocean can also be compared to the various materialistic things...to money..and to so many things more..
It is not essential that I have experienced the things mentioned above...but I have observed these things...it happens...and I am sure it does..this ocean is dangerous...very dangerous...i can just say “control your feelings”...don’t let them free..

So this “shit” is from my side...for you...learn from it if you want to..don’t even bother to think about it if you aint interested..call it “a piece of shit” if you feel like...or just give it a thought it might help...
People learn to learn from your mistakes..if someone pushes you ... you push them back...don’t just fall...give it a try if you want to but then later dare you cry...its tough ...its hard...but in the end its worth it...its okay! This is life...and it has to be grand!!!